行為藝術的《那誰》:渡日月、穿山水,如何帶笑歸去?

行為藝術的《那誰》:渡日月、穿山水,如何帶笑歸去?
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我們想讓你知道的是

藝術家在當下、在現埸,乃Marina Abramovic的最好註腳。

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情路漫長,相愛時難,離別時面對更難。當我們攜手走過,無數年月,沒想到竟會迎來傷害、欺騙,以至分開。恆久折磨,像黃偉文筆下《那誰》:「你淚痕像條綠色的銹,直到永久,抹不走」。

Marina Abramovic和Ulay,相戀十二年,彼此以為是唯一,創作許多經典的藝術,曾有《Nightsea Crossing》之作,相坐對視。Marina相信,對面的那誰,必須是Ulay。

Ulay出軌,當著她眼前,不斷和別人調情。Marina心痛,企圖挽回一切,假裝開放,提出三人戀愛關係,勉強自己3P,噁心。床上醒來,再也不喜歡他的氣味,哀莫大於心死。

Later, it was around five in the morning, and I was lying on the bed next to them, wide awake, while they slept, exhausted. I just lay there as the slow luminosity of the new day crept in, and the roosters began to crow outside….And then I heard an old Thai woman in the kitchen, washing the dishes while preparing breakfast. I remember everything: the smell, the stillness, the two of them beside me in this bed….

1988年,此情不再,仍想完成計劃多年最後的作品——《The Lovers: The Great Wall》。走過長城,戈壁沙漠為火,黃河為水,男陽女陰的起點。兩人約定,走到中間相遇,曾想像即場結婚。

三個月步行2500公里,「渡日月、穿山水,尚在恨那誰」。此行對Ulay來說,輕鬆得很,沙漠平坦。Marina卻要走過,如同摧毀的廢墟,艱辛路程,心存希望,或能挽回感情,步步忐忑不安。

她相信長城之獨特,太空唯一看到的建築,信仰腳踏大地,邁步向前,肉身成就詩句。他沒有信守諾言,為了拍照比約定更早停步,隨行中國翻譯,更身懷其胎,準備至北京結婚。

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My heart was broken. But my tears weren’t just about the end of our relationship. We had accomplished a monumental work — separately. My own part in it felt epic, a long ordeal that was over at last.

Marina和Ulay在非約定之地,Marina握手哭泣。Marina把自己放得卑賤,備受折磨,是了斷的儀式。唯有如此,她始能揮別,這段深愛的依戀,也彷彿呼應兩人昔年的創作主題,相愛亦是相殺。

2010年,Marina舉辦回顧展覽,上層重演舊作。中層,她表演新作《The Artist Is Present》。此作源自昔年《Nightsea Crossing》,如今她知道了對面的那誰,不一定是他,能夠是其他可能。

故此,她邀請任何一位觀眾,坐在面前對望。Marina每日長時間坐在椅子,全心全意注視,觀眾和藝術家互動、感知,化作行為藝術之一。藝術源自生活,屬於眾人,肉身即中介橋樑。

This was life. Could art, should art, be isolated from life? I began to feel more and more strongly that art must be life — it must belong to everybody. I felt, more powerfully than ever, that what I had created had a purpose.

Ulay坐了下來,那刻,十二年的吉光片羽湧現。誰沒兩個致命舊愛侶?連重提往事也不再絕對。Marina無法自控,他始終是那誰,特別存在。打破規則,不止觀看,兩人再度握手流淚。

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1981 Nightsea Crossing & 2020 The Artist Is Present

It was a shocking moment. Twelve years of my life ran through my mind in an instant. For me he was so much more than just another visitor. And so, just this once, I broke the rules. I put my hands on top of his hands, we looked into each other’s eyes, and before I knew what was happening, we were both in tears.

藝術家在當下、在現埸,乃Marina的最好註腳。2015年,Ulay控告她藝術版權違約,賠償金錢。面對昔年摯愛,對簿公堂,就像另一場表演,如何應對,不斷挑戰兩人,難解的生命課題。

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經歷糾纏、紛爭之後,兩人和好,忘卻憤恨,學會灑脫面對,對視彼此,擁抱過去諸多美好。如Marina言,生命和作品互為見證,更見力量。2020年Ulay逝世,功德圓滿,彷彿帶笑歸去。

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